TIME

Time…. an everlasting word,

Regarded from insect to bird,

Never giving itself a rest,

Always going forward at its best…

Never responsible for anything,

Yet it changes everything,

Sometimes good, sometimes bad

Some happy, some sad…

Time has never given itself any time,

Yet it’s always in the lights like lime,

Trust it to lead to your fate,

And it will lead you earlier or later than date…

Life goes on the rails of this eternal clock,

It wraps us in itself like a frock,

Time... Such a powerful word,

One of the best things that man discovered!!!!

- 12 Aug '12

LIVE MORE

Knowing less wont help us in living more... Sometimes we think that if we live in our own world, we wont have to face new difficulties. Exactly like a cat thinks that if she closes her eyes, even the world can't see her. Exposure to new things will only help us in knowing how well we can do in various fields. A modern outlook is extremely important along with the exposure to new things.

Well enough with my philosophical writings. I can explain this better with an experience from my own life.

Right from school I had this motto to have this big circle of friends who will stay close to me lifelong.. That was practically because my sister had such a group. Well finding friends that worth is not an easy task. And I couldn't fulfill these wishes of mine in school life. That was later fulfilled when I went to college.. I found friends who had come from different parts of India. I also found my soul mate in this process- a girl from my own state who had a similar mindset. I didn't have a huge group of friends like I had imagined, but I surely had numerous small groups of friends with different interests.
  In school, my attitude towards everyone was almost same. But as I made different groups of friends, I also learnt to adapt to their interests as well. With one group its always about movies, and night outs and hanging out stuff.. With another its about future talks, serious issues.. Well in short I have all sorts of friends. That helped me improve my attitude and my personality. It also gave me an exposure to what kinds of people are living out there in this humongous world.

Through each an every activity that I have participated in, I always got a new way to look at things. Sports remind of hardwork, sportsmanship, team work, practice.. Projects remind me of research, leadership, duties, distribution of work...Other activities like art, poem recitation etc. all the school stuff reminds me of creativity, memory building, and the most important thing-

An attitude that says- " I'm WILLING TO LEARN"
That is actually only one example that I've mentioned here. But I think its enough for others to know that its not of any use sitting alone in one's own world.
We have to welcome the new phases and new changes in our life.. Where we can feel more, enjoy more and
Live more!!

Nothing left to lose...

I had a dream..
Not just any dream ; it was my ambition, goal, career, my ultimatum, my life. After I had that dream, it was the only thing that gave me a reason to live..
    My dream to be a doctor........
For me, it is the most pure, the most noble deed that a man can do with his life. Being a doctor, saving people, giving them the joy of life is the most dignified task one can do. A doctor is said to have hands of God. When other hopes let you down, a doctor gives a new rising hope, a different sense of security. It is like performing social work in the purest form.
   For me, a doctor's respect is more important than the money he earns. I had this goal in mind..to work in a  village hospital without wages, devoting  my life for the welfare of those in distress.That is because I care for the world around me, about the people around me.
  For me that was my ultimate future in my eyes.But hopes crash..... and as my world came crashing down, I felt nothing could ever make my life worthwhile again. I did not wish to work, study or even live.. I had set some standards for myself, and i failed myself..
  I had everything that was required. But destiny had something else in mind. In my final important years, I got badly distracted by factors ; the craving to enjoy, and waste my time in stupid things..... I'm even ashamed to mention them now. I feel that I'm such a loser who couldn't focus on one thing I actually craved for my entire life. Others will never understand what I've lost. Its not only my dream, it was my soul that I lost it out there when I failed in that last test.
  I cannot repent or regret anything, because it has already happened. I acted foolishly and it cost my soul,
I've been taught to be content with whatever I get. My self confidence has staggered a little, and I doubt the faith in me. All these thoughts aren't worth sharing for one reason- Nobody will completely understand what I mean to say.
  I have to move on, but the scar of my failure will stay behind in my life. The boiling depression in me will stay hidden inside. I won't be given a chance to cry out loud till my voice goes sore or to mention my failure to others.
 Yet I stand up again, this time to fulfill the hopes of other people, the faith they have in me, And now I won't face failure again as I have left it behind. I will make it worthwhile, I promise to make everyone proud of me, and hold up to their conviction. 
 My heart skipped a beat when the world gave me a second chance. I will make the most of it now. I get a chance to be a Physiotherapist in my future, which is not quite as bad. I am still struggling with the inner 'ME' to regain the confidence when my mind says -
 " You've nothing left to lose now. So go, face the world as there is nothing that can go wrong."
I just hope I get what I deserve, I will certainly strive hard to achieve success... As there is a new hope rising inside me.. I hope I won't fail me, the second time.. So here I go anticipating what the world has in store for me- Certainly not any more crashing hopes... I guess!!!




23 June '12  

Wonder when will my life begin

Just as I stepped out in this world,

Just as around my mom I curled,

Just as I felt the shock of the first pain,

Just as I enjoyed dancing in the rain,

Just as I stepped out with new people,

Just as I realized my heart is too feeble,

Just as I had a broken heart,

Just as I made up for the bad part,

Just as I found trust in friends,

                                                      Just as I realize, to love, there is no end,

                                                      Just as I dived deeper inside me,

                                                      Just as I started feeling more free,

                                                      Just as I feel all feelings creep in,

                                               I still wonder  When will my life begin!!!!

        -7 June '12

My most amazing journey!!

At last all exams were finally over. I had this trip planned to go to karwar with my best friend.. Karwar is a small town in the north of the state Karnataka which is extremely peaceful and divine. We were ready to leave in the morning at 5:30 am. And we had almost missed the bus, which we didn't .. thankfully as my friend's dad put the car in the way of the bus. Sort of a funny threatening. We got into the bus.. hurrying up.. We were 4 people in all.. Me, my friend Neeti, her mum and her brother... It was quite an exciting catch up.. We at last sat in the bus. The journey was pretty fine. All sleepy and sweaty..... Then we got a break to have a simple but delicious lunch. The later part was just AWESOME. ... Going through all the ghats and valleys.. the series of forests.. the beautifully lined up tress... the roads shining in the sun.... and all of us just jolting due to the bus ride... Me, Neeti and her bro were sort of playing this push each other game... when suddenly there was a hell lot of chaos.. The bus jolted and a bucket full of CRABS just overturned!!!!!!!!!!!! There was water all over.. All the crabs were running here and there.. utter chaos in the bus... The driver even stopped the bus and stood up on his seat as a crab had clutched to the accelerator. The next 45 minutes were utter confusion and excitement... Yet we all felt sorry for the man who was running behind those carbs to pick them up. For us, it was entertainment.. For him, it was probably his daily earnings.. Atlast the chaos died down. And we all settled down in our seats. The rest of the journey was quite nowmal with no more adventures.. But a lot of chit chatting about the crab incident!! The serene beauty of nature had caught my breath!!! It was the most memorable journey I had till today!! Extra thanks to the CRABS!!!


-16 May '12

Atlast - A floppy grin on my face!!

I wake up on my own this morning

Smiling, with a feeling that it's gonna be a good day,

I get ready and look forward it

With a floppy grin on my face!!

Today I finally found myself,

Laughing, Smiling, Teasing, and wondering

How come I was so stupid in the past

With a floppy grin on my face!!

I can finally be what I am,

With no one to keep an eye on me,

As I get back with my stupid old friends,

With a floppy grin on my face!!

Burden-free, Tension-free as I feel,

I get back all that I had left behind

Taking everything willingly,

With a floppy grin on my face!! 

- 3 May '12

Quantum of Solace!

From the past two years I had been continuously busy with all coaching classes and all kinds of studies... People had been tormenting me about how important these years are for me... Naturally i was in 11th and 12th   grade. There were continuous showers of lectures on career deciding paths, and personality development and etc etc.. We all usually had more numbers of visitors and relatives who come to ask us about the preparations.. Yet I had time to enjoy my college years with buddies. No groans and no complaints. Time has passed very quickly as today suddenly I realize that all my exams and all my studies are over. Just like that.. GONE!!! All those entrance exams and forms and admit cards... Where to post, what to apply for.. Everything just vanished now.. I woke up in the morning as a free bird!! Peace.. Nobody came to wake me up or remind me about any classes. I finally found time to do something that I liked without anyone scolding me for it.. The first thing I did was watch a movie with my best friend... Go to a cool cake shop and cafe.. meet friends.. Drink Sugarcane juice..Play hide and seek... Bliss!!!!!!! Its finally a Quantum of Solace... And I'm happy that there are many more days to come like these!! tension-free...discipline-free.. I can stop organizing my schedule for classes, but I'll doing it for other things!!  But finally... I'M FREE